What a LONG week

I have not been too good at this thing but im getting better.
This past week has been kind of a bad one; 2 people passed away that are close to my family. One was a church friend who was very involved in the community, the other was my brothers math teacher. All in all, I think what made it so long was the amount of stress these events and the events of working, school, trying to work out a job at the hospital, and all of the above made for a long week.
Its after a week like this that I just need to take a step back and look at my life. Am I doing what I should be doing? What more can I do? If I passed right now, would I be right with God? Life is so unpridictable at times, its kind of scary. I know im not the best at everything and that I do have flaws, but I do hope that I can someday find that certain peace in life, that I can find that right girl for me to marry and to complete my life, to have children so as to complete my joy in life. I know all things are on Gods time, I just need to remember that tomorrow isnt garanteed so make the most of today.